Thursday, July 14, 2011

What's w/ this rollercoaster right? I want off of it!

I feel like I'm at an amusement park and can't get off of Space Mountain or the Superman ride.  It's ridiculous.

I know so much about weight loss, what I need to eat, how I need to exercise, supplements, shakes, the whole bit... yet I don't adhere to it.  One small mistake sends me off the rocket!... I 'spose I just live for the moment all too often?

I mean, I myself have identified the fact that my biggest life issue, at this point, is my weight.  I would have so much DAMN potential, if it weren't for my weight... yet I still continue my evil ways.  You think it'd be plain as day and almost simple to a fault... but it ain't.  At least for me it isn't.  One little distractiong (like my dad coming in for the next 2 weeks, a weekend getaway) and I'm off the wagon. What the hellllll!... sorry, this is just so... frustrating.  I'm so over this depressing ride...

I need a hypnotist. lol... well, I need something, not sure what my issue or funk is.  But this shit has got to stop.  Sorry for the profanity, but I'm just fed up w/ myself right now.